Letting (Some) Bylines Be Bygones

White space is the space around and between design elements.  The image is important, but so is the space around the image that is left unmarked.  What the image is not is just as important as what the image is.

This analogy has helped me to understand my own writerly identity.  Who I am not as a writer is just as important as who I am as a writer. 

We all have one, don’t we? The publishing fantasy? This was mine in my twenties: I fantasized that all those men I’d loved and lost would see my photo on a book jacket cover. My hair and makeup would naturally look amazing. I would have no dark circles under my eyes. My outfit would be effortlessly trendy and fit just right.

And those men that I had loved and lost would pine for me and regret that they’d ever let me go.  Success would be the sweetest revenge.

I was willing to do whatever it took to make this happen. I believed that I was a writing chameleon, willing and able to write whatever pleased a potential audience.  Write poetry in form even though I detested writing in form? No problem!  Catalog, in excruciating detail, the sound my slouchy boots made against every tile surface as I meandered around Europe? ( Oh yeah, I thought I was a proper flaneur*, my friends).  I have volumes of this work. Write about love and loss and lust mixed with hormones beneath palm trees and street lamps in Barcelona? I’d be delighted!

There are certain behaviors and activities that just aren’t me anymore, and there are certain writing topics that aren’t either. I recently had an idea for a piece that I nearly submitted to an online publication. I felt that I understood the publication’s aim well and had a good chance of getting into it and getting paid. Upon more closely examining the site, I discovered some things that just weren’t me and with which I did not want to be associated. Recognizing this was empowering.  

I’m not desperate to be published anymore like I was in my twenties. Part of this is because I enjoy having my journalism pieces published so that desire is partially satisfied, but part of it is because God has given me a solid understanding of my own identity over the years. And if a publication venue doesn’t correspond to my values, I’m okay with letting some bylines be bygones.

What is one theme or value that you find emerging in your writing? Please let me know in the comments!

Thank you for sharing!

*A flaneur is someone who strolled about European city streets. The feminine form is technically flaneuse, but I never read a book that referenced that form.

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  1. ashaardwolfe

    Hi Stacey!

    Love the blog and love this post 🙂

    I never considered my fiction writing as having a similar theme, but, after reflection, I can definitively say that the theme for much of my work is loss: loss of time, innocence, self, dignity, control, items (treasure!).

    I learned something new about myself and my work today.

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  2. Stacey

    Oh, yay! Thank you for such a thoughtful comment. I think those themes are very universal!

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  3. Anthony Manganelli

    Thank you my love.

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  4. Jeffrey H. King

    I’ve written two novels and self-published one. Both were novels based on faith. In fact, the one I published (sales were absolutely through the floor!) is titled The Substance Hoped For after Hebrews 1:1. My blog is 99.99% faith based, COVID being the exception which I viewed as a kind of public service, my readership making that a relative concept.😁

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    1. Stacey

      Self publishing is so tough! I hope you didn’t spend a ton of money on it. Someone in my writer’s group spent 5k on it, and I almost choked when she told me.

      Yes, the readership does make that relative, but I think that is where “be bold” is important. I appreciate you sharing your experiences honestly. Really and truly, thank you!

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      1. Jeffrey H. King

        I didn’t spend nearly that much, but it was still a chunk. Never made it back. Turns out I’m a better writer than marketer.

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  6. Wise Hearted

    Your heart stirred my heart as I read your post. You were young to have such physcial drama hit you and I know you cannot have physcial drama without it causing mental drama. It sounds like you are doing well, I pray its as good as it reads.

    I started a memoir about 12 years ago and it still has not made it to a publisher. Still not sure if it ever will. Writing out my growing up years with an abusive father and not having any of God in our house except in cuss words, made me a survivor. I started a blog when we lived in Papua New Guinea, an island north of Australia where we served a missionariess. Our journey to serve the Lord started by serving in Bolivia but before that we were full time at a local church in Ky. Before that my husband worked for an airline so we lived in several states. Life for me has been full of pain from an early age that drove me to read a lot. I had six miscarriages before we finally had our first, a girl, another miscarriage then a son and after that I quit. All that along with reading an NIV bible led me to accept God free gift of salvation through His Son. All that life before begin to take on another way of looking at it. I am telling you all this to say this, God waste nothing, not one hurt, not one joy, not one relationship, nothing is wasted in life if God is in it. Things that came before Him He will also use. The very first thing He taught me was life was no longer in Betty but life was in Christ. 

    Will visit you blog more to see what God is doing in your life. Blessings

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    1. Stacey

      Wow, thank you so much for sharing that. I’m so very sorry to hear about your father’s abuse and your miscarriages. I agree that God wastes nothing but am still sorry you had to endure that. I will check out your block if it’s still active. Thank you again for stopping by! I’m honored that you shared some of your story with me.

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